I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #541 - The Beginning of a Healing Heart - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Saturday, January 20, 2024

I live barefooted and naked, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i. I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

In my past two posts I've been talking about my broken heart, how it got that way, and about my desire, intention, and need to heal it. As I've been putting my experiences and feelings into words, writing about it, and talking with others (here at GaiaYoga, here on Hive, and on Qortal), I notice that frozen, locked up energy within me is beginning to loosen and to move. I feel myself slowly shifting, and with it, my perspective.

Truly, fully accepting, forgiving, loving, trusting, and believing in myself is front and center as the most essential and important things that I can do right now, and also the most challenging. I can feel myself opening and relaxing into this more and more. It likely won't shift over night, but the process does seem to have started.

Belief. I've known about the overwhelming importance of belief, and in everything, for many years, both from decades of research, and from very practical personal experience. Even though I've been aware of the pivotal significance of belief, in my own life, especially when the subject is me, I've oscillated back and forth between 'this is just the way things are' and 'I believe in myself and I know that I can create anything that I truly want in my life'. Part of the reason for that, especially as of late, is the aftereffects of learning and realizing that even that idea, 'that we create our own reality', was co-opted and used against people as a part of the New Age Movement, which was yet another seemingly organic social movement which, in the end, turns out to have been injected into human consciousness and pushed in society, to cause harm, conflict, and to make people easier to manipulate decades later. As with most movements like that, which were either engineered from the beginning or co-opted later, it's not so much the ideas which are the problem, but rather how they are used and pushed (that's actually how the cabal controlled and enslaved humanity for so long, by putting into our minds what they wanted us to create). Belief is everything from my experience, for it is what opens or closes doors of possibilities for us, and what coalesces our experiences around us. That's a long way of saying that I really do need to believe in myself, and that what I most desire is indeed possible for me in my life.

A dear friend on Qortal contacted me via a private message there, telling me that he has read my two previous Hive posts, The Shards of a Broken Heart, and that he was very much in the same boat as me, also being a solitary off-grid hermit. Sharing conversation with him around this has definitely helped me, and allowed me to step back a bit to look at myself and my life with more compassion and understanding. That, and my counseling conversation with Sperry the other day, does seem to be getting things moving and shifting inside of me. My conversations with my Qortal friend seems to be assisting him with his own healing process, too. I can feel my energy and perspective shifting, which would suggest that my physical experience may soon change to match it as well. Regardless, I'll maintain my focus on keeping my healing momentum going. I am determined to heal this completely. I have too many contributions to make, and gifts, beauty, and magic to share, to allow myself to continue living in suffering. Period.

I left the Flow House around 3PM again yesterday, Saturday, after wrapping up my essential Hive tasks. I took photos for this post, first, before putting my focus on land work. I gave collecting cow food a try, the first time since my machete accident where I cut my right thumb joint, and thankfully it went well. I can use my hand, I just can't use it full force just yet, so no two-handed machete chopping for the moment. My wound continues to heal quickly. After I got cow food, I did some more paid work in Ano's nursery, continuing my thorough weeding job. It's looking way better.

After working, I took a shower, strained out kefir for my kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao blend, collected my leftover food and superfood fire coffee from the Landing fridge, then I headed back to the Flow House for my evening round of Hive tasks, and catching up on my notifications. I was able to get everything done by around 10PM, which was way better than the previous night. I did a round of token management, scanned and perused my X feed, spent a little time on Qortal and Bastyon, then I went to bed just after 12:30AM. Very thankfully I slept well until 6AM, doing another round of token management, scanning X and Bastyon again, then finally getting out of bed around 8AM to go make my superfood fire coffee.

It's almost 1PM, so a great time to end this post, so that I can get to my very Hive-focused Sunday. I have my 86th Sunday Weekly Hive Goals and Progress Update to compile, write, and publish later tonight. Before that I'll make sure that I have all my daily Hive tasks done, and that I'm fully caught up on my notifications. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until that post tonight, and the next version of this post tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness, and do regular integral practices. 

3.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again. 

4.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

5.) Continue my work with Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, Bastyon, and other sovereignty-driven technologies, as well as learn relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute. 

6.) Get regular healing sessions with women flowing again. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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