I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #542 - For There to Be Healing, There Must Be Willingness - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Sunday, January 21, 2024

I live barefooted and naked, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i. I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

For any healing, or beneficial and positive change in our lives, in my life, there must be an openness and willingness to it. Without that, it simply won't happen. I can speak from quite a lot of personal experience on that one, as I am, as you might say, very bull-headed and stubborn. That can be very useful, like with having a rock-solid determination and tenacity for what I'm creating and building on Hive (I'm also immune to social pressure), but in the domain of healing inner wounds, it is not nearly so useful.

I can talk about my intention and desire to heal my broken heart all I want, but if I am not willing to go outside of my comfort zone to do so, my words are basically meaningless. I can still feel internal resistance, and it is that which I need to address. Going outside my comfort zone is something I used to do all the time. Now, however, and for most of the last year, I have mostly just stayed to myself, and stayed in the jungle, focused in my own world, and on my own activities. Hive has gotten the majority of my attention, time, energy, and efforts in that time, which has allowed me to build and grow my Hive account immensely, for which I am exceedingly grateful. Human healing, balance, integration, and wholness beckon me, however, and to give that the time and attention that is necessary, I will soon likely have to reorganize what I do here on Hive, and how and when I do it.

With that in mind, I intend to get to a point soon where I can focus less on building, growing, and saving on Hive, and focus more on what is deeply meaningful, inspiring, and motivating for me here - helping people. That's my purpose in anything that I do, to create deep mutually-beneficial dynamics and relationships, that are good and beneficial for everyone involved, myself included.

Given that I devote so much time to Hive every day, and have for quite some time now, if I actually intend to open to connections and relationships with people again, it will be necessary for me to open my time, and to make space, in my busy schedule, for such things. That might be pretty challenging, because I am fully committed and dedicated to Hive and what I do here. There is definitely some resistance that I feel around this, because Hive is important to me. This of course touches on what I said happened after the end of my relationship with my ex-girlfriend, Kai, where all the love and devotion that I had for her was transfered to Hive. If I open to the idea of devotion to a woman in relationship again, what then will become of my devotion for Hive? That is a question to which I don't yet have an answer.

My Sunday, as all Sundays have been for quite a while now, was almost completely focused on Hive, between my various important Hive tasks, catching up on notifications, and of course compiling and writing my My 86th Sunday Weekly Hive Goals and Progress Update: 3/3 Weekly Goals Smashed, 6,100 HP Surpassed, and a Liquidity Pool Removed!. I did make some time to take photos for this post, strain out and blend kefir, and make myself food, but the whole rest of the day was devoted to Hive. I wasn't able to get my Goals and Progress Update published until just before 12AM, a bit later than I had intended. I did a quick round of token management, then I went to bed just after 12:30AM. I did very thankfully sleep well, waking up around 7:30AM, doing another round of token management, then getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee.

I had this post partially written when I needed to pause to attend the Monday Leadership Council meeting from 10:30AM to around 11:45AM. I made my way back to the Flow House to continue with this post once the meeting ended.

It's just past 12:30PM, so a very good time to end this post, so that I can get to my afternoon round of essential Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House in the later afternoon to first take photos for tomorrow's expression of this post, and then land work afterward. I deeply appreciate you all very much! Until tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness, and do regular integral practices. 

3.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again. 

4.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

5.) Continue my work with Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, Bastyon, and other sovereignty-driven technologies, as well as learn relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute. 

6.) Get regular healing sessions with women flowing again. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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