I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #596 - Bridging Radically Different Perspective and Worlds - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Friday, March 15, 2024

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

This has been a busy Saturday so far and I have less than 2 hours to write this post before the 2PM publishing cutoff point (when Hive's UTC time changes from one day to the next). As I expressed in my post yesterday, I had some experiences in relation to women which trigged my heart to go numb again, my masculine electric fire and my heart sun to go out (or strongly dim), and my heart to close. This showed me clearly that I still have healing and repatterning to do inside of myself.

The very events, workshops, and practices that I'm working to ground here in community are also the very ones that most trigger my wounded parts. That won't stop me from grounding them here, however, as I know that these wounded sticking points are things that I need to face, address, work through, heal, and reintegrate back into wholeness. This process often doesn't feel good, nor is it necessarily easy, but it is the path of moving from one perspective and world of experience to another immensely-more-fulfilling one.

That bridging of radically different perspectives and worlds is a process that is happening right now inside of myself, and in the jungle community where I live. New energy is stirring and flowing, while old stuck energy is also still present, which makes for somewhat challenging social navigation. What I'm seeing and feeling unfold here, and inside myself, is very inspiring, exciting, and motivating, but it is a process that takes time, openness and willingness, love and care, and courage and trust, to face the difficult things, both internally and in the community, and to reconcile, reconnect, and heal the dissonances that arise. This is incredibly worthwhile, and is what allows us, me and this diverse community of people, to come to a new level of interaction, connection, relationship, and co-creation with each other.

My greatest gift with women and the Feminine is also very paradoxically my greatest wound, and it is that which I am in the midst of facing, working through, and healing at this time. I'm repatterning my system, clearing patterns which trigger me to shut down and withdraw, and replacing them with patterns that create far more fun, fulfilling, and meaningful experiences in my life. My impatient fire wants it to be done already, so that I can get right to that which is far more enjoyable, but that's not how it works. The pain and difficulties are there to show me that the perspective from which I was operating is distorted, and as such requires reorientation and adjustments. I can't circumvent this. I have to go through it. So my experiences over the past two weeks have been akin to 3 step forward, and two steps back. I'm not at the same place that I was before I shifted so potently, and I'm also not where I was before my heart went numb and my heart sun dimmed again. I am learning, growing, healing, and progressing, it's just more of a journey than a one-time-done-forever event.

Yesterday, Friday, I got all of my Hive tasks, and the previous iteration of this post published, very early, before 10AM, because I had a session with Omya scheduled for 1PM. Her session went beautifully, very thankfully. Omya is six-months pregnant, and it was the first time I'd worked with a woman in that state in several years. We had a community potluck in Tutu's afterward, which Omya and her husband Kevin attended for a while. There was a lot of really delicious food, great conversations, and lots of playfulness, and I stayed there until almost 10PM. I shared beautiful, heart-felt, and helpful conversation with Sara on these challenges that I've been experiencing. I also played charades for a while with Sara, Tiger Heart, Iolanthe, and Elohi, something I don't do very often. It was was fun. After taking Iolanthe back to Shiva-Shakti at the end of the night, I returned to the Flow House to do some of my important Hive tasks, and to catch up on my notifications. I got to with 13 hours of being fully caught up, and then I went to bed just before 12AM. Super thankfully I did sleep well last night, something which has become rather rare, waking up around 8AM, doing a round of token management, then getting out of bed around 8:30AM to go make my superfood fire coffee.

After a many-month lapse, a GaiaYoga Immersion began this morning (a two-week course, with two classes per day, on the underlying foundational principles of GaiaYoga culture) with what's called an Aloha meeting, in which people shared why they were at GaiaYoga Gardens, and what they hoped to give and receive from the Immersion. I'll be teaching one class in this immersion, Whole Natural Sovereign Divine Humanity, on the Friday after next.

After the Aloha meeting, I took photos for this post, then I returned to the Flow House to write it, and to talk with Shane, who joined me for a time. We shared a conversation on how to heal what needs to be healed within us, how to embody a healthy masculine expression, and how to flow with women in a fulfilling and mutually beneficial way. Once Shane left, I started on writing this post finally.

It's now just past 1:30PM, so a very good time to end this post, so that I can get to a few essential Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House in the later afternoon to first take photos for the next expression of this post, and then either working with Eyeza in a focused session (it was planned, but I haven't seen or heard from her today yet, so it may not happen), and/or land work. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart and embody a solid, healthy masculine. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular integral practices again. 

4.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again. 

5.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

6.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

7.) Get regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions with women flowing again.

8.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent, mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, joy, playfulness, work, attraction, all-level connections, and relationships. 

9.) Make love with the women that I love every day.

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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