I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #653 - An Inner Call to Realign - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Monday, May 11, 2024

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

As humans we are either in a state of expansion or contraction, and I myself have experienced many rounds of both. Just a short while ago, maybe a month to a month and a half ago, I moved into a very potent state of expansion, with my inner heart sun igniting in its radiant glory, to the marvel and delight of everyone around me. That did not last, however, as it brought me face to face with old, deep wounds, and unable to fully resolve, reconcile, and heal them, I retreated and contracted once again, staying to myself and my world. That's how I've been, more or less, since then, which I must say is not a very inspiring, motivating, interesting, or enjoyable place to be. The longer I'm in this state, the stronger the inner calling is to reconnect with my core life energy, and to shift it.

My 2024 Life Goals (that I have at the bottom of these posts) were mostly (though not entirely) put on hold, and sidelined, as some are so far from my present experience that they began to feel 'undoable'. I know that this is not accurate, but that's how it's felt. I've revised and updated them 3 times since I first created them back in December, and as it stands now, I think I need to put some attention on them again, to narrow down, simplify, and to focus them more effectively.

I truly am grateful for my life, and where and how I live, even though there are parts of my life (like close, intimate relationships) that presently just don't flow at all, which is still very painful for me, hence my choice to shut down, contract, and withdraw back into myself for extended periods of time. My life energy won't allow me to remain like this for too long, however, and the need and desire to shift grows stronger and more insistent with every day that passes.

Regardless of how I'm feeling, I still make what I'm building and growing here on Hive a priority, and I continue to show up, day in and day out, to do so. When I'm in a more contracted expression, it's true that inspiration about what to share in these daily posts is a bit more challenging to access. I'll sometimes sit here for multiple hours, pondering and feeling into what to write. It's frustrating, because when I am in a more expansive and flowing state, inspiration comes to me quite quickly. I may be an exceptional human with many gifts, but I am far from 'perfect', or living my ideal life. Even with that being the case, I will still always give my all to Hive, and assist and help people, both here on Hive and in my day-to-day life, to the best of my ability in any moment.

Yesterday, Saturday, I left the Flow House a little after 2:30PM, straining out and blending kefir (kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao) first. I had intended to take more photos for these posts, but the cloudy, gray weather put a damper on that. I ended up doing some focused body work on Aukuna, on his neck and shoulders, at his request, for a short while. After working on Aukuna, I got my machete and did some tree pruning and clearing next to the Flow House, which I'd been meaning to do for a while now. When I finished that, I continued with the clearing work that I had started the other day along the second driveway. After finishing that for the day, I took a shower, collected my jars of leftover superfood fire coffee and medicinal tea from the Landing fridge, then I made my way back up to the Flow House, to begin my evening round of Hive tasks, and catching up on my notifications. I got everything on Hive done by just before 10:45PM, and after scanning my Bastyon and X feeds, I went to bed, way later than I had hoped, just after 1AM. I definitely could have used more sleep, waking up just after 7:15AM, doing a round of token management, beginning on this post, then getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee.

It's now just after 1:30PM, so a very good time to end this post, so that I can get to a few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House later in the afternoon, to stain out and blend kefir. It's been cloud, gray, and rainy all day so far, so I doubt that I'll be able to take more photos for these posts. Since it's Sunday, I'll also begin working on my 102 Sunday Weekly Hive Goals and Progress Update, which I'll either publish later tonight, or tomorrow morning, depending on how it flows. I'll also focus on catching up fully on my notifications, and a few other important Hive tasks. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until my Hive Goals and Progress Update tonight (or tomorrow morning), and the next iteration of this post tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others. 

4.) Dance regularly again.

5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again. 

 6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.

7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.

9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships. 

10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice. 

11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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