I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #696 - I Think That My Broken Heart Is Finally Healing - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Sunday, June 23, 2024

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I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

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Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

Over the past several weeks to maybe a month, I've been feeling a noticeable yet subtle shift inside of myself. It's so subtle that it's hard to put my finger on exactly what it is, but it does seem to be of a very good and beneficial nature. Overall I've been feeling better about myself and my life, and more content and solid within myself. I think I actually feel my value now.

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Aside from what I notice inside of myself, I've also been more open to accepting invitations, connecting with people, and going off-property to do enjoyable activities. That's a notable change. And in accepting invitations, and choosing to go off-property, I've found that I've had some deeply beautiful interactions and connections with women, especially Lea at the women's gathering, and with Hope and Olivia at the Trading Post, as well as gratitude and thanks expressed to me for the space that I hold for the feminine, and for the deep, integral energy-body-tantric healing work sessions that I offer women.

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Lea and Hope I've known for several years, and I adore both of them. My interactions with Olivia were short, but oh so sweet. Both Lea and Hope have expressed desire to receive sessions from me, which is wondeful, though we haven't scheduled any as of yet, though I imagine that will change soon. I've also expressed interest to Hope to go visit her and Olivia, and to see Hope's new property. Hope told me that they both love my energy, and that they'd love for me to visit. Beautiful.

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Women are a big part of my purpose and the work that I do in the world, as well as always being of paramount importance for me, so they will always take center stage in my life, to one degree or another, even though I do go through periods of self-isolation and loneliness. Romantic connections and relationships are what usually makes things go awry, because they bring me face to face with my greatest fears about myself, and in the past I've often shut down and withdrawn. I think that that is what has shifted inside of me. Somehow and someway I feel worthy now. That's a big one. We'll see how it plays out.

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Yesterday, Sunday, I left the Flow House, after my morning-afternoon Hive tasks, around 1PM. I strained out and blended kefir (kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao) first, and then I took a few photos for these posts. I sunbathed on the trampoline in the Peanut Lawn, and I went for a few walks, both on the property and a short way down our jungle road. I also planted a few cuttings of various plants that I had collected over the past week or so. I headed back to the Flow House, after collecting my quart jar of leftover superfood fire coffee, just before 5:30PM, to get into my evening round of Hive tasks, and catching up on notifications. I finished with my notifications by just before 10PM, and the I spent a good while engaging and posting on Waves, before finally going to bed about 12AM. I did sleep well, very thankfully, waking up just a little after 8AM, doing a round of token management, writing and publishing My 108th Sunday Weekly Hive Goals and Progress Update: Not the Best Week for Weekly Goals, and an Unexpected Investment Choice post, and then getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee.

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It's before 12:45PM, so a fantastic time to end this post, so that I can get to my few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House later in the afternoon, to first strain out and blend kefir, maybe take more photos, and then land work. I have a session scheduled tomorrow at 1PM with Emily, so I'll do my best get everything done on Hive before her session. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until tomorrow's iteration of these posts! Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, we go, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

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2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others. 

4.) Dance regularly again.

5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again. 

 6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.

7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.

9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships. 

10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice. 

11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

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All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

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Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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It's good to hear that your heart is already healing

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Thanks so much for that, @efmm, it's greatly appreciated! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

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