I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #732 - Doubling Down and Catching Up - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Monday, July 29, 2024

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

At the moment my heart is somewhere between numb and in pain, so this will likely be a shorter post. Over the past four days, until this morning, I've been spending a great deal of time with Lizzie, a woman who lives here in the community, and with whom I've been sharing a very juicy and sweet connection. That may indeed be done now, very sadly.

Since spending time with Lizzie, I've fallen about 3 days behind on my Hive notifications, something that I haven't done in years. As such, the ending of our dance will allow me to get back to my usual solid Hive focus, and since I'm 3 days behind I've got many hours of work to do to get myself fully caught up again. After writing this post, and finishing up a few important Hive tasks, I'll be devoting the whole rest of today and tonight to bringing my account fully up to date once again.

It's basically only making time for meaningful connections and relationships which would get in the way of my usual rock-solid Hive activity and engagement, so with the painful experience that I just had this morning in regard to Lizzie, I'll be doubling down and getting my Hive affairs back in order. Even in times of great challenges, I will put my focus where it is most helpful and useful, and for me that's on Hive.

How is it that some of the most beautiful connections and relationships can go in such astoundingly heartbreaking directions? That's a rhetorical question, of course, so no need to attempt to answer. Through all the ever-changing people and experiences in my life, I've gotten used to being alone, doing my own thing by myself, and giving my time and attention to what is most meaningful for me. Hive has been one of the most consistent, dependable, and reliable significant elements in my life (far more so than any people) since I arrived here almost 3 years ago, and I have huge commitment, dedication, and loyalty to it, and what I do here, so that will continue. People in my life are mostly ephermral and transitory, with only a few things, like the Hive Blockchain, being immutably present and meaningful, so that's what gets my focus and time.

Yesterday, Monday, I left the Flow House, after finshing my usual Hive rounds, just after 1:30PM, going to Tutu's first to make Iolanthe some food, and then to spend some time hanging out with her drawing. After hanging out with Io, I went to spend time with Lizzie. Toward the early evening, we went to the Landing to make some food, and to continue with the preparation of the medicinal tea that we had collected from the land on Sunday. After eating, Lizzie went to the community Logistics meeting, and I returned to the Flow House to get important Hive tasks done, and to catch up as much as I possibly could on my notifications, before Lizzie appeared after the meeting. I got a good chunk done, but I was still 2 days behind last night when Lizzie and I went to sleep, around 9:30PM. I did super thankfully sleep a lot better than the night before (any sleep is better than no sleep). After spending time with Lizzie in the early morning, I did some token management, and started on this post, after she left, then I headed go the Landing to make my superfood fire coffee.

I won't go into the details of why my heart hurts in relation to Lizzie, but I will say that at this point that it is quite unlikely that we will be close again. It's now just after 12PM, so an excellent time to end this post, so that I can get to my important Hive tasks, and then dive into my all-day Hive-catch-up marathon. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until the next iteration of this post tomorrow! Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, together we go! 😁💚✨🤙🙏

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others. 

4.) Dance regularly again.

5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again. 

 6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.

7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.

9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships. 

10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice. 

11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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