I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #600 - On the Edge of Breakthrough - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Tuesday, March 19, 2024

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

I'm so close. That's what it feels like now. I can see the finish line, one that is not an end, but rather the beginning of a whole new world and stage of my life for me. I put healing my broken heart at the top of my list of 2024 Life Goals because I know clearly how important it is, and even though I still do get triggered periodically, I am definitely working through this, and because I do feel so close to a big breakthrough I feel renewed determination to push forward, to keep going, and to not give up. I'm just sitting and being with the uncomfortability that come up, more and more, and I feel myself growing, like a plant to the sun.

I'm not yet where I want to be, but I would say that I'm much closer than before I set healing my broken heart as a main goal for this year, and even closer than before my very recent heart-sun reignition. Having patience with the process, being able to be OK with my present state of not yet having what I want, while I see and hear about people around me that do have that for which I'm most longing, is my growth edge at this time. My trigger reactions are still present, but I'm gently leaning into them, opening my eyes and my mind to beauty to which I'd been blind, hiding in the very moments from which I had previously run.

During my session with Harmony yesterday I had a significant epiphany. I love working with Harmony in sessions for many reasons, one of which is that our conversations are so enjoyable, and because she is so insightful, so many times while working with her, I'd received important realizations and new clarity. Giving a session is getting a session, as I would say. The epiphany that popped into my mind is that, quite simply, I forgot that I'm magic. When I know I'm magic, I bend reality around me, when I forgot that I'm magic, I feel bent by reality. I've always lived at the edge of possible and impossible, fact and fantasy, one and all, an alchemist living far outside the domain by which so many are limited through their own belief in their own limitations.

I'm magic, and so are you. We sometimes forgot, from time to time, which is why we have those dear bright souls, that appear in our lives, seemingly out of NowHere, at just the right moment, to remind us of our true nature, beyond the tragic stories that we repeat in our minds, so convinced that we are of their truth and reality. We are reality. Everything else is artifice, and the artifice is malleable, like clay in our hands, given form by our intention, either conscious or unconscious, and we can make the unconscious, conscious.

So yes, I'm healing and growing, and I seem to be at the cusp of finally shifting and repatterning some very deep, life-long wounds and misperceptions, brought to the surface by my recent heartbreaks, that have limited my world, and caused far more pain and difficulty than was necessary, on and off, at different points in my life. Letting go of the past. Opening to the magic, NowHere, and with heart-felt desire and intention, living in gratitude for the radiant and beautiful realities that we are creating, individually, and together. I'm magic, and so are you.

Yesterday, Tuesday, was a gorgeous sunny and warm day, perfect for giving sessions, which is exactly what I was doing for a good chunk of the day, working with Harmony, as I mentioned above. After Harmony's session was done, and once she had left, happy and noodly, I left the Flow House to go strain out kefir for my kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao bland. I ended returning to the Flow House again, with Sara, to have a conversation with her about the container and parameters for her session on Thursday. Once we finished with that, I did finally strain and blend my kefir. A short time after getting kefir done, I shared a lovely conversation up at the Flow House with Neva and Shane, over a spliff. When we finally shared our good-night hugs, and they left for the evening, I focused on catching up on my Hive notifications. Because I started so late, just after 9PM, I was not able to get fully caught up, only getting to within 13 hours of being up to date. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up fully tonight. I went to sleep just after 12AM, and I did sleep well, but I still woke up feeling like I needed more sleep. I feel like I'm doing acrobatics in my sleep, making me tired by morning...🤣 I started on a quick round of token management around 7:30AM, and I began on this post, before getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee around 8AM.

It's now just before 11AM, so an excellent time to end this post, so that I may get to a few essential Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House in the later afternoon, to first take photos for tomorrow's expression of this post, to meet up with Neva at 2PM for our naked energy movement yogic practice on the Peanut Lawn, strain out another round of kefir for my kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao blend, and then land work. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart and embody a solid, healthy masculine. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular integral practices again. 

4.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again. 

5.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

6.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

7.) Get regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions with women flowing again.

8.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent, mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, joy, playfulness, work, attraction, all-level connections, and relationships. 

9.) Make love with the women that I love every day.

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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